Why I Want To Be A Mother

I am almost 19 and my goal in life is to be a mother. Since I was 4 I have been taking care of kids, my little brother was born when I was almost 4 and he has been my baby since. Every day I take care of my siblings while my husband and my mom work. I am used to taking care of kids and I love doing that. Most people my age freak out if you mention kids because in our society today the social norm is to have babies in your mid to late 20's. After you have in the eyes of your peers "grown up" to their standard. Young women are told that we have to be all for the whole women's rights and how women are just as good as men. And I am all for that, I believe that women should be allowed to do whatever they want. I believe I should be able to do whatever I want too.

I want to be a mother because that is my choice in life. I believe every woman has many choices to make in their lives. I am just making one of my many choices. I have my entire life to make a decision about my career and going to college. Yet I do not have my entire life to make a decision about having a child. I may only have a few years or 10 years. I do not know. However I am making that decision now. I am ready to be a mother, I am ready for the late nights of babies crying. I am ready for all the diaper changes, the runny noses, the temper tantrums. I am not thinking that it is going to be all fun and games. It is going to be hard work, it is going to be a thankless job. And yet it is what I have wanted to be since I can remember. Some girls grow up wanting to be a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher. I want to be a mom. 

I want my profession to be a mom. I want to wake up every morning and go to work raising my kids. I want to earn my promotions with each child I have. I want to have the arms of my children around my neck instead of diamonds. I want my "clients" to call me Mommy. I want to be their magic doctor who kisses all the boo boos away and who checks for monsters under the bed. I want to take them to the doctor when they're sick and cuddle with them. I wanna take them to Disneyland and see their faces when they see their favorite characters. I want every day to learn something new about their little personalities and see them turn into beautiful, caring adults. And when I hear them say "I love you mommy" I will know that it was all worth while. That will be my paycheck, my bonus and my college degree.

I know that I am almost 19, I know that society thinks I should be partying and going to college. I plan on partying, like birthday parties with Disney Junior characters and juice boxes, instead of beer and dancing. I plan on finishing college at some point. However my goal in life is not to spend it doing something I am not happy doing. I plan on spending my life being happy and doing what I feel will make me happy.